Quick update

Well, the time has come. Kaleb and Scott and I are going to be staying with Scott's parents, and his daughter Abbi (15yrs old)-in a 2 bdrm house! One bath by the way!! This is going to be insane, and hopefully temporary. Disability can't come soon enough! This was a last resort. I've tried finding help from so many places-with nothing turning up. My sister Kelly was supposed to have moved in with me in the home I was renting (in my name) when Dad died. She backed out on me 2 weeks before Christmas! Here I am, with my son and no where to live! I can't work because of the claim, and I trusted my sister to do what she said she would do. I have been let down so many times in my life, but this one was a major hit. Know what's even more impressive? Kelly won't talk to me. She ignores me when she sees me, and our son's go to the same school. She won't return any messages I've sent to her and has switched up her friends list on myspace to where all of her boyfriend's family are above me on her Top Friends. Maybe this shouldn't matter to me, but it's the little things I guess that piss me off. That's something she knew I'd see and she knew it would be a slap in the face-so whatever! I got the point, and I'm over it. She's the one who shit on me, not me on her-and I should be the one not accepting messages and ignoring her. I forgive way to easily. Forget-that's a different story, but I forgive too easily and it always bites me in the ass.
I don't have Internet access at Scott's parent's house-but will be getting it added onto the cable package soon, so for now, I'll be blogging on Word 2007, saving to a flash drive and uploading while at school. That is if I can find time with the move and all to get some of these thoughts that are rotting my brain out.
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So sick of shit and being shitted on. I pray that this will open up new doors for me. I feel like I can't breathe all of the time. I mean, all of the time! My anxiety is through the roof and I am completely overwhelmed.
Till next time--pray for us.
H