The suffocation

You judge me as if you know who I am.
You have no idea the things I’ve seen..
Or the places that I’ve been.

To say you know me is a joke in itself..
I painted the walls on the inside of my heart
Just to see how it felt

To see a different shade..one I haven’t known
Peeking through the threads on the patches of my heart
Where each one had been sewn..

When pieces were torn apart…giving a tiny glimmer of light
From the inside of my fragile heart's cage all your lies were like vines,
Wrapping and twisting around my reality-although out of sight

I couldn’t feel my way through to find my way out.
They strangled and choked and suffocated my thoughts
But you know me, I fought and I fought

To know the truth, only to hear you say..
“Wait” , knowing by then I had been done long ago-
Back before the pain set in and began to flow

Through my veins like rushing waters
Flooding out all common sense
What about my feelings, my needs? Why bother?

I left her alone- there- in a puddle of rain
She doesn’t know how long she’s been there
But I know her well enough to know she won’t complain

She’s all about the greater good, even if it means
Chasing her dreams until finally collapsing-out of breath
In the shadows of where you once stood.