Horizon....

So, my life is about to grow and produce happiness for the first time in a really long time. I cannot express enough what a dark place I was in and for how long. My life had no consistency really-nothing to make me press forward.

I wish I could fill these posts with happiness and hope-and they're starting to resemble something of the liking, and I think pretty soon that's all that they'll be about.

After all, after the darkness comes the light..that's what I'm living for anyhow-the hope of a new day and a new horizon. I think that I have been shut off from a lot of things and held back in a lot of ways-which I know--only I can hold myself back..but I have allowed that behavior to carry on-and I'm no longer going to let that happen.

I can literally feel myself growing inside. I can feel an anxiousness which is different from the anxiety which I used to feel.

Words are flowing freely-thoughts are not jumbled anymore..things seem very clear as far as direction in my life..

I wonder though, if this feeling is temporary..if when I get what it is I strive for if I will be satisfied, and if so-for how long?

How long before that's not satisfactory..dull..lifeless? Guess that's all part of living and learning-growing and filtering...